I Can't Resist

I don't want to touch you,
but now i'm holding onto you so tight.
I try so hard to avoid you,
but I always manage to be drawn into your line of sight.

Everyday I wait just to see you,
even when I know it's no use,
you are not good for me,
yet I can't escape this abuse,
you will never see me,
the way I see you.

Why is this so hard?
What about you can I not seem to fight?
Am I the only one who feels like this?
Or are you feeling it too?

I swore to myself I wouldn't let you get inside my head.
There is nothing you could do to change my mind.
I thought I had long since sealed away my emotion,
that my heart was since dead.

But, it seems that love,
emotion and memories with you,
I cannot leave behind,
they will always recollect,
and live within my soul.

Why can't this just end?
Why can't the fog clear?
This can't be good,
why did we let ourselves get here?

I know nothing good will come of this,
only tragedy and tears.
Yet here I am looking at you,
waiting to kiss you once again.